Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Every holiday
I dont want to sound like a spoiled child but i am really upset... I have six sisters and i feel like i am really always getting the short end of the stick on some things...i feel like i always have...i have done everything my parents have ever asked of me.. i went to school..i didnt do drugs... i got married had kids...joined the army..long story but i have always done whatever my parents asked of me.. i did everything. this pisses me off bad!!!
yet they get everything they have ever wanted...i didnt get a class ring or senior pictures..i didnt get a graduation party...they never bought a car or paid for a cell phone bill for me...Yet my everyone of my little sisters have all those things handed to them...it hurts... my sister constance isnt even doing her school work... she is supposed to be doing internet classes yet she isnt and they bought her a new car... my little sister danielle freaken took off cross country dropped out of school to shack up with a 22 year old man... did i mention she is 16... wtf!! and they are going to buy her a car... ummm... helllo when is it ever going to be my fucking turn??? I am stick of a struggle when they do whatever the fuck they want they dont care about them and get what ever they want... is this fair... uhhhh no... wtf!!
yet they get everything they have ever wanted...i didnt get a class ring or senior pictures..i didnt get a graduation party...they never bought a car or paid for a cell phone bill for me...Yet my everyone of my little sisters have all those things handed to them...it hurts... my sister constance isnt even doing her school work... she is supposed to be doing internet classes yet she isnt and they bought her a new car... my little sister danielle freaken took off cross country dropped out of school to shack up with a 22 year old man... did i mention she is 16... wtf!! and they are going to buy her a car... ummm... helllo when is it ever going to be my fucking turn??? I am stick of a struggle when they do whatever the fuck they want they dont care about them and get what ever they want... is this fair... uhhhh no... wtf!!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I can not believe its been this long....
I can not believe it has been this long since i have posted.... i feel even worse because i have so many page views...
The reason I have not been on here or on facebook. is because .... I found out that I have cervical cancer. I have not been dealing with it well... my bed is my comfort...i haven't been out very much.. last night i was motivated to clean my kitchen... and that was only because i had no more spoons...I don't know how to feel... the worst part of it all is that... it could have all been prevented...instead...i give all my trust and all my love into one person and he cheats on me.. then gives me an std that now caused me to get cervical cancer.. oh yes that sounds wonderful..I cant even say those words aloud with out breaking down a crying my eyes out... is this what i get for being faithful for so long? Why is God punishing me??? It may sound like a pitty party.. but i promise it is not... i am so sad... confused... MAD why?? Why did he have to do this to me? Not only to me but to my children...I want more children some day.. now that seems like that will not happen...I am out of minutes because ppl keep txting me and asking me where i am...i cant bring my self to tell anyone. I am so embarrassed... my life feels like it is over...shouldn't it be the other way around he played he should pay??? Shouldn't he be suffering?? Shouldn't he have a consequence?? I was finally feeling happy about to start a new life with out Mirena. Happy and ready to live and now... after everything.... i have no more words... i dont want to talk... i have no minutes on my phone... my facebook is about to get canceled... and i am about to go kill that whore...
The reason I have not been on here or on facebook. is because .... I found out that I have cervical cancer. I have not been dealing with it well... my bed is my comfort...i haven't been out very much.. last night i was motivated to clean my kitchen... and that was only because i had no more spoons...I don't know how to feel... the worst part of it all is that... it could have all been prevented...instead...i give all my trust and all my love into one person and he cheats on me.. then gives me an std that now caused me to get cervical cancer.. oh yes that sounds wonderful..I cant even say those words aloud with out breaking down a crying my eyes out... is this what i get for being faithful for so long? Why is God punishing me??? It may sound like a pitty party.. but i promise it is not... i am so sad... confused... MAD why?? Why did he have to do this to me? Not only to me but to my children...I want more children some day.. now that seems like that will not happen...I am out of minutes because ppl keep txting me and asking me where i am...i cant bring my self to tell anyone. I am so embarrassed... my life feels like it is over...shouldn't it be the other way around he played he should pay??? Shouldn't he be suffering?? Shouldn't he have a consequence?? I was finally feeling happy about to start a new life with out Mirena. Happy and ready to live and now... after everything.... i have no more words... i dont want to talk... i have no minutes on my phone... my facebook is about to get canceled... and i am about to go kill that whore...
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Ten things that are really annoy me
I decided to write a little blog about my neighbors and why they annoy the shit out of me....
10. they like to take turns airing out there drama in the middle of the street when i am trying to go some where. They stand in the middle of the street screaming at the top of there lungs things like .... you cheated on me you piece of shit bastard...i will cut you bitch and blah blah blah.. I dont live in the ghetto but the ghetto is slowly moving in.
9. They like to push there garbage cans full of shit waaaaay out into the street...UMMM if we all do that instead of leaving it at the end of our drive ways then there wont be a road to drive down you turds...
8. a few of my neighbors decided it would be fun to get pit bull and let them roam around the neighbor hood. Ok i have little kids... and they play out side...if one of my kids get eaten my your dogs i will freaken shoot it then u...
7.There are tons of young teen age boys that live at the end of the road and they like to go 90 mph down the road... ummm this isnt a drag strip
6.They stare all the fucking time...When i smile or wave don't look at me like i am an part of c.p.s.
5.If you are having a badass party in my back yard YOU BETTER IN INVITE ME...or i am inviting the police.. ;)
4.My Asian next door neighbor is always talking in her little language and giving me shitty looks... shut up bitch its not like im asking u to paint my nails.
3.when i walk to the mailbox at the end of my drive way that doesnt mean u need to shout HEY BABY!! YOUR ASS BE LOOKING FINE... wtf??? Do i know you??
2.we dont all need to know when someone is "crunk"
1. I hate that i cant go into my back yard with out all the neighbor hood kids coming over for free babysitting.... watch your own damn kids dont send them to my house.
I feel a little better....
10. they like to take turns airing out there drama in the middle of the street when i am trying to go some where. They stand in the middle of the street screaming at the top of there lungs things like .... you cheated on me you piece of shit bastard...i will cut you bitch and blah blah blah.. I dont live in the ghetto but the ghetto is slowly moving in.
9. They like to push there garbage cans full of shit waaaaay out into the street...UMMM if we all do that instead of leaving it at the end of our drive ways then there wont be a road to drive down you turds...
8. a few of my neighbors decided it would be fun to get pit bull and let them roam around the neighbor hood. Ok i have little kids... and they play out side...if one of my kids get eaten my your dogs i will freaken shoot it then u...
7.There are tons of young teen age boys that live at the end of the road and they like to go 90 mph down the road... ummm this isnt a drag strip
6.They stare all the fucking time...When i smile or wave don't look at me like i am an part of c.p.s.
5.If you are having a badass party in my back yard YOU BETTER IN INVITE ME...or i am inviting the police.. ;)
4.My Asian next door neighbor is always talking in her little language and giving me shitty looks... shut up bitch its not like im asking u to paint my nails.
3.when i walk to the mailbox at the end of my drive way that doesnt mean u need to shout HEY BABY!! YOUR ASS BE LOOKING FINE... wtf??? Do i know you??
2.we dont all need to know when someone is "crunk"
1. I hate that i cant go into my back yard with out all the neighbor hood kids coming over for free babysitting.... watch your own damn kids dont send them to my house.
I feel a little better....
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