Untitled

Yes i purposely named this blog untitled... i dont know how to feel or what to name this. Let me do the mirena part first...well let start off with the usually if you are a guy then you really dont want to read this part. Ok here it goes... I have had alot of energy.. but it is starting to slow down. I think it may have to do something with alot of bleeding. maybe i might be anemic.... i think i need to be tested. Hopefully my insurance will kick in soon.

Here is the other part... you ever look at your self in the mirror and think what is it that is missing??? I feel this big empty spot in my heart. I feel that there is something missing. My heart is acheing for something more...i miss that deeply in love feeling...no i have that feeling i take it back... i miss that feeling like someone feels equally the same about me. Maybe its there and i dont see it and he feels the same way but it doesnt seem like it. I mean its not the fact that we dont see each other.. its not even that...i feel like i need that explosion of feelings!! I need to say to my self damn i feel happy.... when is that going to happen? It was there before!!! I want it back!! Dont i deserve it??? I know i do!! I guess id rather be numb on Mirena then feel a continued sense of loss... loss of love. Maybe that is why God made me get is out....so i can deal with this...with feelings like real people....the more i think about it mirena is more of a drug then i knew.... i feel like an addict coming off a narcotic. HEY MAKERS OF MIRENA AND MY LIFE>>> HERE IS A BIG F U