I can not believe it has been this long since i have posted.... i feel even worse because i have so many page views...
The reason I have not been on here or on facebook. is because .... I found out that I have cervical cancer. I have not been dealing with it well... my bed is my comfort...i haven't been out very much.. last night i was motivated to clean my kitchen... and that was only because i had no more spoons...I don't know how to feel... the worst part of it all is that... it could have all been prevented...instead...i give all my trust and all my love into one person and he cheats on me.. then gives me an std that now caused me to get cervical cancer.. oh yes that sounds wonderful..I cant even say those words aloud with out breaking down a crying my eyes out... is this what i get for being faithful for so long? Why is God punishing me??? It may sound like a pitty party.. but i promise it is not... i am so sad... confused... MAD why?? Why did he have to do this to me? Not only to me but to my children...I want more children some day.. now that seems like that will not happen...I am out of minutes because ppl keep txting me and asking me where i am...i cant bring my self to tell anyone. I am so embarrassed... my life feels like it is over...shouldn't it be the other way around he played he should pay??? Shouldn't he be suffering?? Shouldn't he have a consequence?? I was finally feeling happy about to start a new life with out Mirena. Happy and ready to live and now... after everything.... i have no more words... i dont want to talk... i have no minutes on my phone... my facebook is about to get canceled... and i am about to go kill that whore...
The reason I have not been on here or on facebook. is because .... I found out that I have cervical cancer. I have not been dealing with it well... my bed is my comfort...i haven't been out very much.. last night i was motivated to clean my kitchen... and that was only because i had no more spoons...I don't know how to feel... the worst part of it all is that... it could have all been prevented...instead...i give all my trust and all my love into one person and he cheats on me.. then gives me an std that now caused me to get cervical cancer.. oh yes that sounds wonderful..I cant even say those words aloud with out breaking down a crying my eyes out... is this what i get for being faithful for so long? Why is God punishing me??? It may sound like a pitty party.. but i promise it is not... i am so sad... confused... MAD why?? Why did he have to do this to me? Not only to me but to my children...I want more children some day.. now that seems like that will not happen...I am out of minutes because ppl keep txting me and asking me where i am...i cant bring my self to tell anyone. I am so embarrassed... my life feels like it is over...shouldn't it be the other way around he played he should pay??? Shouldn't he be suffering?? Shouldn't he have a consequence?? I was finally feeling happy about to start a new life with out Mirena. Happy and ready to live and now... after everything.... i have no more words... i dont want to talk... i have no minutes on my phone... my facebook is about to get canceled... and i am about to go kill that whore...
I am so sorry to read your blog - I came here looking for post Mirena stories. Have you thought the Mirena may have caused the cervical cancer? There are others who have had the warning signs masked and developed cervical and breast cancers from Mirena.
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